Thoughts

Glowing

Glowing.

Joyful.

Peaceful.

These are the words I would use to describe a woman who is well cared for :: a woman who has confidence in her husband and is cherished by him. She is secure, she is well-acquainted with his love, she is not violently tossed about by the tumultuous waves of life that inevitably come, yet walks faithfully, steadily, through the hills and valleys with her lifelong companion. Exuding joy from her inner being, she is like a precious jewel that radiates joy onto other people and you can’t help but smile when you gaze on her bright countenance or carry a conversation with her.

Haven’t we all seen this or known someone or a few someones like this?

I know I have.

A friend recently shared this example with me and applied it to another relationship, one far more perfect and holy than marriage: in the same way that a woman is cherished by her husband, how much more we are cherished as the bride of Christ! Consider this verse from Zephaniah 3:17:

“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.”

Because I’m a background enthusiast and dislike when verses are used willy nilly without their proper context, technically this passage is referring to the nation of Israel, but in the same way I think this promise applies to all of the Lord’s people. In the commentary section my study Bible adds that “This verse remarkably adds that God himself will rejoice over you with gladness, indicating that when God’s people seek him and follow him, and rejoice in him and trust him, then God personally delights in them. This is not an aloof, emotionless contentment, but it bursts forth in joyful divine celebration: he will exult over you with loud singing.”

Wow! Let this sink in for a moment.

Consider how well-cared for we are in the hand our Shepherd! He is one who stoops low to meet us in our burdens and sorrows. Indeed, He bends down towards us in mercy, He comforts us with His love, and protects us with the strength of His hand. And even more, He delights in holding us! It is not a burden or a chore that He does begrudgingly, but gives us freely. Remember this and be filled to overflowing :: that we are cherished perfectly in a way that no other thing or person or insert ____ fulfill us.

Dear friends, let us be daughters of the Most High who live in this beautiful, soul-satisfying reality!

Thoughts

I Trust You

“I trust you.”

Those words, so sincere, caught me off guard. A pair of wide, fearful eyes fixed on me as I carefully scanned a medication to give to one of my patients. It came in a syringe attached to a long needle and though I tried to keep it out of her sight, she was not relishing the idea of getting a big shot. I could hardly blame her, but as I explained the benefits of the medication and tried to put her fears at ease (I’ve given lots of shots like this and the worst part about it is dreading it), she was still nervous. She needed a medicine called betamethasone for the two beautiful babies kicking around in her body. Those babies needed to stay in their mama longer, but her body was beginning to give signs that it was ready for them to come out. Anticipating an early delivery, this medicine would help those tiny baby lungs to mature and be able to handle the pressure of the world should they transition into it before they were fully ready.

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I felt a strange sense of responsibility when she uttered those words of trust. I am always responsible for my actions and I feel that weight daily at my job, but this was different. Mulling over her response, I realized again this truth:

As a nurse, I am trusted almost automatically. Is it my badge and blue scrubs that gives me this trust? Is it the warm and friendly manner with which I strive to care for them? Regardless, when my patients see me as trustworthy, I am invited, without question, into the deepest parts of who people are. I am swept into their stories of joy, loss, grief, physical and emotional pain, anxiety, pride, and love as I care for them. They feel open to speak with me about things they might never tell even their loved ones because I am their nurse, I am safe.

They ask me questions and they want to know everything I can tell them about first their labor and what happens when they deliver a baby, then how to take care of their baby. They want to know that their baby is okay, that their symptoms are normal, and that they are doing a wonderful job as a new parent. Sometimes I can calm their fears and assure them that they are doing fine, other times, as much as I hate bearing bad news, I must tell them that everything is not okay. So many emotions. So many tears of joy and tears of frustration and tears of feeling inadequate. It’s a vulnerable, intimate relationship that springs up quickly. Though exhausting at times, it reminds me again why I love my job and what a privilege it is to be a nurse.

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After a little pinch, the needle was all over and done with. My patient breathed a sigh of relief and hoped the worst was over. Though she went home that night, her words of trust lingered with me still.

“I trust you.”

Oh to strive all the more to be worthy of that trust.

My Bucket List

A list of things I want to do someday…

Backpack to the bottom of the Grand Canyon and camp there overnight 

Learn how to kite surf

Bike the Dairyland Dare 

Have a high tea in London

Epic kayak + camping trip (like, out in the boonies y’all) 

Learn how to play the guitar

Join a choir

Learn how to swing dance

Go on a snowmobile trip

Catch a baby 

Attend an AWHONN conference

Go to a naturopathic conference

Go on a road trip from the east coast or west coast (or vice-versa) 

Run a Tough Mudder

Nail the technique for parallel parking

Sip tea at the White Sands Hotel in Prince Edward Island

Run on a horizontal airport escalator

Be totally and completely immersed in Hispanic culture for a short amount of time, forcing me to speak only Spanish

Skydive

Sew a log cabin quilt

Climb a 5.12 grade wall (rock climbers, you’ll know what I’m talking about)

Sleep outside under a canopy of stars

Make my own kefir, kombucha, and red-raspberry leaf tea 

Plant a garden

Convince my older brother to like coffee

Win a watermelon-seed-spitting contest

Jump in a body of icy waters in the middle of a Minnesota winter

Play tag on top a bunch of hay bales without breaking my neck  

Eat a worm

Experience the Northern Lights

See Carrie Underwood live in concert

Learn the art of hammocking

…..more to come with inspiration!